November 30, 2014....happy thanksgiving

So it is almost thanksgiving and I hope every one is ready to eat. Dig in and eat all you can stand. Thanksgiving will come around again next year. 

I guess you could say I am on vacation. Right now I am in the northern part of Utah. Not exactly a "destination" but very fun.

The hardest thing about being out in the big wide world is I can get so tired by things. I want to do more than I can most days. I can just start bawling and that can lead to all kinds of other problems. 

I really want to type but I am so tired.  

Thursday, November 20, 2014.....what a trip.

So, at the VA. Not to diferent but I am sure tired. I hate being tired. I guess that is how life is for me now. 

I guess many people would like to say I have a good life, and in many ways I do, but it is so hard to move some days.  I would never recommend having a stroke because you think it might be fun.

I want to reiterate that strokes are no fun.    If you want to have one, have fun, but I don't recommend it.

I went to the VA yesterday and that was ok. Today I am at the airport. My flight got canceled and I am waiting for another. I seem to be good at waiting. I still don't like it sometimes though. 

I might get on an earlier flight but either way I will live. 

This whole thing today is crazy. I may be waiting for a while. It is like they want to to reinvent the wheel. As long as I get there but I will be happy but I was originally supposed to be getting there when my plane leaves now. Planes break that is one thing I know from being a pilot myself. There can be so much scrambling behind the scenes. If you want things to always run smooth you might as well die. I don't think there is anything that runs smooth in this life or the next. 

So they changed my flight again. Since things got changed again for me they gave me a couple of meal vouchers. 

The thing is trying to find a sit down place to eat. I used to like buffets but they are really not the place that I would go now unless I had to. The food is usually good but it will create loads of work for someone I go with. Someone has to get my food and their own. I don't go out to eat to wait on others and I don't think others do. So I found a good place that waits on you and the food was good to. 

I am at Salt Lake air port now. Very different from the last time I was here. It is much bigger but it is very nice. 

I stopped and had dinner and this very nice gentleman paid for my meal. He did not have to but I have been working at trying to find a good balance between accepting someone's offer and taking care of things by myself. Haven't figured out the best balance yet but maybe someday I will. 

I wish I could tell you how tired I am right now. I have been up since 5am central time. It is now, as I write this, 7pm mountain time. Put me to bed.  

Well I finally arrived. My plane got in about 9pm. I was so tired that I couldn't stand myself anymore so I went to bed. Well take care all. 

November 12, 2014...so much I want to write.

So writing today I am at the VA and my oldest son is with me. Fun. 

I really can be crazy going to the VA but that is how it can be. 

Well now it's two days later. Yesterday I got my wheelchair fixed. It seems to get broken faster than it gets fixed. 

Today was an interesting day. But hopefully my case will be finished soon. 

Just in case you are wondering the divorce is final. The case needs to be finished. 

I have a lot I want to say but I have a really bad headache right now.  

November7, 20014 yea that would be fun.

So I have an appointment at the VA today.   In general I have a lot of apointments. 

So. I have been thinking that it might be fun to get a car. Nothing to use to take me places but just to ride in and have fun. Other people could use it to but it would be my car. I am trying to get some driver training but that is a different story. 

I want to get a Dodge Charger. Maybe I'm living in a pipe dream but it is my pipe dream so take your concerns with you. 

I have lots of things to consider. But since it has four doors it would work well for the family. Not perfect but good enough. 

Right now I would love to write more but I would love to write more but I am just so tired and easily distracted. Look squirrel. 

November 6, 2014. Stupid stupid stupid.

So today is the day. Horrible. I get to do a colonoscopy not very much fun. 

The prep is the worst part. You are given this awful stuff to drink. That is usually the worst part. 

I can say that this is the most rediculas day ever. Beyond stupid. If they don't get me in there and do this soon I might go crazy. It is almost 1:00. I have been here since 10:30.

Well I did not get my colonoscopy done. The doctor was insistent that I be given an IV so that I could be made unconscious for the procedure. I had an appointment about a month ago and I was resigned to the fact that they would give me a sedative. What changed?   I was called and the person on the other end of the line said I would not be required to be unconscious. So I began to operate under the belief that I would not need to have an IV or be unconscious. So up until the moment of the procedure I thought that an IV was an option. Well I was already and the doctor came to see me. I guess it was her attempt to get me to have an IV. She made three attempts to get me to accept an IV. Finally she tried to talk to my step father. I what was probably a last ditch effort to get me to change me mind. I am very grateful that he basically referred her back to me. 

So all the preparation and no colonoscopy. Well at least I was clean as a whistle inside and out.