Friday 29 January 2016....whatever.

I'm not frowning I'm just not smiling. 

Monday 27 January 2016.....yeah.

I hate everything. 

Do I have to like anything?

Saturday 23 January 2016.....mine.

I have been watching "Pirates of the Caribbean". Very fun movie. 

I watched a show that was about real pirates. Wow. Big difference. 

I started thinking. The "Pirates of the Caribbean" movie is a wonderful film with a very fun antihero. Jack Sparrow is not a Hero.  Very fun character. Not a Hero. The closest thing to a hero is Norrington. Not the most likable. Closest person to a "Hero".  

The main reason I would say it's an antihero movie is because of the something Jack says. "The  most important thing is what a man can do and what he can't do."

So many things about the movie are what we would term as "wrong" and what are not acceptable. It is a very romanticized story. 

I really quite like it. 

Now one thing that has concerned me for quite a while is people taking about my life, or other people's, as if it were their own. I hate that. 

If I make something known it is fair game. 

If information about me comes from someone else, please consider it untrue and hear say. 

My life is not for other people's entertainment. That is what actors are for, maybe reality TV. 

I am not saying I don't like other people. Just when the primary topic of conversation is me I don't appreciate it. 

Medical people my need to discuss me at times. That's part of there job. I'm not a patient so the topics of me would be very limited. 

I discuss very little of my life. Talking is very hard for me. I can talk nearly incessantly. I get very tired if that happens. 

Like most people my favorite topic of conversation can be myself. That doesn't mean I discuss everything

There are very few people that know about my life. I share things very sparingly. No one knows everything about my life.

Friday 15 January 2016.....(It's not worth the effort today)

You can only say so much before....put the phone down. 

Tuesday 12 January 2016......my life.

So I got nightstands and a lamp. It is nice to have a lamp at dark times. 

That's my good news right now. 

Right.  

A friend posted a article on facebook. I reposted it. Look at it if you like.  It is about being an introvert. 

I thought for a long time I was an extrovert. I tried really tried hard to pass as an extrovert for a long time. I have a lot of experience talking and theater experience.  I learned how to be more "outgoing". 

I have to be more introverted now because of my stroke. I remember before my stroke I loved being around people but I would get so tired being around them. Whatever the case I am not the same person I was before the stroke. 

There are so many things I want to say right now.  Talk is cheap. 

I am a big believer in talk therapy. The thing is that talking is very hard for me now. If others like to talk have fun with out me. 

Another thing I want to say is I am in a wheelchair, I have some emotional, memory and physical difficulty. I am not stupid. Of coarse you can think what you want.

Friday 8 January 2016.......I just realized.

Yesterday was my 42nd birthday. 

The answer to life, the universe, and everything we learn in "The hitchhikers guide to the Galexy" is 42. 

It should be a very good year....or the world might come to an end. 

Either way don't panic. And don't forget your towel. 

Just for fun

Have a nice day. 

Thursday 7 January 2016.......happy birthday to me.

I've been doing a lot of writing 

Long story short I had a stroke. Surprise. 

It effected my body and emotions. Again. Surprise. 

Enjoy this. 

Tuesday 5 January 2016......blah.

 String your favorite expletive together about twenty times. That sums up my life right now. 

Friday 1 January 2016....Happy New Year, new day. Smile.

There are things that have been very up in the air for a while. I hate that. 

I like fast answers as much as anyone. Right now I have to tolerate the slow answer. I wait and wait. I think I have everything figured out. Then an answer comes to me that I wasn't expecting. That's life. 

I was reminded of a scripture:

 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

 For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:

 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.

(Isaiah 55:9-11, Old Testament)

I might be considered foolish by some. I can live with that. If it makes them feel better so be it.

 

There are times that I can see things that might seem better at first sight. I have learned that is not always the case. 

There are times that looking back I can see how some things seemed "sensible" one way. The less "sensible" option was better. 

One friend thinks I work to slowly. I would agree. I hate the way some things are so slow at times. I just need to remember it's not always about me. Sometimes slower is better. 

I am beyond sensible in a lot of ways. 

Just so people don't forget it's me here's a picture to help you have some fun.