What I have to explain is very difficult because language is so clumsy. There are two types of tired.
There is one that is more mental and perception based. There is one that is more physical. I’ve known about them for years. But I have never been able to explain them to my satisfaction. I will try to now.
I used to go to a gym regularly. There were days I felt amazing but the people there would ask me if I was tired. There were days I felt like I could barely do anything but the people there though I looked and acted stronger.
I noticed the same type of thing the other day. I felt great. I drove my chair to HEB, the grocery store, after I got my hair cut and went to the nail salon. I felt great. I wonder if I may have been acting tired at all. This morning I felt great until I started to get up then the more I moved the more tired I felt.
Then there have been more days than I care to mention that I just want to lay there and do nothing. I know it is a miracle I can do anything at all. I spoke with my mother the other day. I got the impression that I can do more than she can, and that is saying a lot. Most people know I can’t do a lot by myself. I’m still annoyed some things take me so long.
Now my perception about how the world is idiotic. It’s not hard to find idiocy. Most of us only have to stumble out our front door. For example my apartment management repainted the apartments. They look anemic now.
So if you’re male great. If you’re female great. If you’re trans great.
All the arguments about where someone should compete is stupid. Males compete against males, females against females, trans against trans, lizard against lizard. Dog against dog. Cat against cat.
For fun.
Me today I feel like I got run over.
