21 April 2023……this world is stupid if you don’t look away.

What is your thoughts. 

WHY do people think they can’t love someone they disagree with. 

I wear fingernail polish. Does that make me unlovable. 

Now more important thoughts. 

My plants.

 Lemon tree. (Lemon drop). Half lemon half kumquat. 

I have been sitting here looking at my lemon tree. I finally got it repotted. I got past blooming and now tiny little lemons are starting to grow. 

The palms

They were volunteer. I bought some soil for a tomato plant, and the soil was based on coconut/palm trees. They got bitten by the cold at Christmas time, but they are coming back strong. 

Citronella 

My mom gave me this one because she was moving back to Utah. It’s a tough plant. It was killed by frost and cold the past three years. But it comes back. I had some wonderful people from church help me repot it so hopefully we are good for at least three more years.

 

Avocado

After my moms husband died I wanted my children to honor him. This is the Grandpa Larry tree. Grandpa Larry loves avocados. The cold last Christmas time froze the leaves off, but it’s coming back with vengeance. 

Maple 

This is one of the impulse buys I have allowed myself to make. Walmart can have very cool stuff sometimes. 

Catnip and chives

The catnip has really taken over. The chives we don’t know how to use properly.  My cat loves the catnip. But I have been told it can have a drug like effect on cats.  

Grapefruit

We started six seeds. We got four. Who knows what will happen. 

Potato (I think)

It started growing so my wife start watering it. Then I put the tomato cage around it because it was falling over. 

Peppers

these should be mini bells. We started with 5. Two died. So we will see what happens. It’s been sending out lots of flowers and growing a lot. 

Then I have three other pots that are just sitting and waiting at the moment 

My marvelous wife keeps things watered nicely. I can do it but it is a very slow process by myself. 

So. I love to sit outside with my plants. Watching them grow day by day can help me have a more realistic view of how life goes. 

14 April 2023…….ugh. Just ugh.

Week 7

Make bread every week. 

      So my wife discovered one of the bread loaves made with olive oil. It was very crumbly. Butter works better. 

     

Floss my teeth daily. 

          I’m doing ok. 

Grow chilli peppers and trees. 

        My plants are all growing well. The leaves are still coming out. I have peppers that are budding. One of my trees is starting nicely. 

        

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

          So I have decided that I need to plan to go to the gym every other week right now.  Some things can’t stop, they just need to slow down. It is so difficult to go somewhere everyday. 

          

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

         I try to help with English study. It seems like driving study is more important to her right now. I’m ok with that. That said we need to study like we are one a mission. 

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

         I set an alarm for different things to do every day for my budgeting and accounting every week. Maybe I need to spend more time, an hour maybe, studying and planning other things that I can do to to prepare how to invest my money. My budgeting I need to spend more on future plans. I don’t do well at planning at times. But planning is the an important part. That said I need to follow my plan. Last year I did not follow a plan. It got me in trouble for a while. That said being in a wheelchair and not having full use of your body, expenses pop up. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

          I need to spend more time on audio books. Maybe I will try more fantasy. 

     

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it. 

      We have not been playing this week. Ugh. Maybe we should play early in the day. 

    

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

          Not to bad this last week. It’s been fun seeing the new general conference talks. I loved Easter. I have been loving some of my studying. 

I hate not being able to drive some days. I was referred to a health care provider that is 30 miles from where I live. In another county. The bus system I normally use doesn’t go there. Fine, I found another service to take me. The first time I went great. I just called today for next week. They have a ride that could take me there, but they haven’t found a ride that can bring me home. 

So,I will call tomorrow I will see if I can finalize setting up my ride. 

Life has so many things trying to grab my attention. One thing that has been fascinating to me is eating. There are so many different diet schemes.

Vegan,vegetarian, some vegetarians eat milk products, some eat fish, some eat birds. There is paleo. There is carnivore. 

I am so confused by all of the different things I have seen some days. 

I can’t be vegan. I like bacon and steak to much. Cow meat was made to make your stomach, and thus you, happy. 

I have discovered people that can’t eat raw vegetables. I’ve know people that can’t eat cooked vegetables. My wife has difficulty with lots of different things. 

My conclusion there are almost as many dietary needs as there are people in the world. Most food is social. Most of us limit our selves to the food that is close to us. Oh well. Humans are creatures of habit. 

4 April 2023……happy First Contact day , bro.

Week 5

Make bread every week. 

     I really don’t need to make more bread this week. I made twice as much last week. I haven’t noticed a difference in olive oil or butter. I will let you know later. 

Floss my teeth daily. 

     Maybe I need to eat more corn on the cob, so I have a “reason” everyday. 

     

Grow chilli peppers and trees. 

     My trees and chillis are growing great. The weather is weird lately. 

   

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

     I need to spend more time standing up. Plus I don’t understand why I am so tired lately. 

     

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

     We have been working some. We have been working on a lot of driving stuff. 

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

     I have been working on lots of different things. I feel like I need to buy things. Almost like there is a water leaking though a dam. But nothing happens if you don’t buy something immediately. The sun still sets. The sun still rises. I have been reading and listening to Dave Ramsey. Figuring out how to pay off my debt and start saving. It is very interesting. “Debt is dumb.”  I really truly believe that a house is the only kind of debt that is worth having. I still want to be a good Jew/Israelite and understand how more of the the Bible teaches about money. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

     I need to do better. I watch TV because I am so tired that I don’t know how much I would be able to pay attention to audio books and writing can take more energy than most people realize. 

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it. 

    I played five card draw and blackjack with my wife. I find it interesting how excited someone can get about 10 cents. That is part of my goal. Easy come easy go. It’s just small amounts of money. We will move to higher amounts of money over the next weeks. 

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

Not good 

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Week 6

 Make bread every week. 

     I was wrong last week we ate 4 loaves of bread fast. Didn’t notice any difference between bread with butter mixed in or bread with olive oil. So that’s that we did have to mix some bread last week. 

Floss my teeth daily. 

     Some days I do well and mostly not to well. 

     

Grow chilli peppers and trees. 

     The trees are doing well and getting more leaves. New leaves are still coming out. The chillis are growing nice I need to repot some grapefruit I started from seed. I love how things grow. 

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

     I have been not wanting to do a lot, again. I am trying to stand more and sit up straight every day. 

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

     Again, mostly driving stuff. My wife signed up for the Spanish language course, we both thought there would be enough similar to help. There is a lot between Spanish and Portuguese that they are similar. That said there is so much different that we can both get very confused. I can help with some Spanish words because they are part of the culture here in San Antonio. So, are we studying English or Spanish. 

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

     I have been working on my money most days. It is easy to forget if we have to go somewhere. But I am hoping to start investing and saving more very soon. I have the idea to only have debt on a house if I can. Anything else cars, education, anything else try to avoid debt like the plague . Some may say, “you have to have debt for your education.”  Bull. I new a lady when I was in college who would skip college for a semester or two to save money. Then use the money she earned to pay. Then me. I used the Army to help pay for my masters degree.  Education doesn’t mean just going to college. Education, very important. College/University, less so. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

     I need to do better. Any ideas?

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it.

Use small amounts of money. We will move to higher amounts of money over the next weeks.

    In some ways we might still be recovering. So no we didn’t play this week. 

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

     I have decided I want to write. Threrefore I need to do it first thing. Reading and listening to scriptures is slightly less intense for me. I just need to set alarms on my phone to remind me to do it better. 

So I have this problem. I get so tired I don’t want to do anything. I feel like I have to drag myself to the bathroom. This morning I had to get up to go to the bathroom. In my mind I wanted to go back to bed after. It requires so much energy to get into and out of my wheelchair. I will sit on the toilet for thirty minutes, an hour, or maybe longer. There are days I can be fast. Then there are the other days. On the other days I’m just there. 

I have so many thoughts that go through my mind recently. All sorts of topics. 

Nothing bothers me more than how people are so cruel to each other. Most humans have their other favorite humans, but that doesn’t go to the rest of the world. I wish I understood why most humans feel they have to force their ideas on others.  Share, if someone doesn’t like the idea maybe the next human will like the idea. 

I have so much I want to say but everything is fighting to come out at once.