16 August 2019

12 August 2019

So, I have to laugh a little. I was accused of being racist the other day. After I said I better tell my Brazilian fiancée, the person backtracked a little and said what I was writing/saying made me sound racist. 

If people want to think of me as racist because it makes them feel more justified about what they are saying, fine. I will let people think whatever he or she wants. Those who know me know that I am one of the least racist people you could ever meet. 

I have a simple way of thinking about race. If you bleed red you are a member of the human race. So far I haven’t met anyone that bleeds any other color. If you know of someone just let them live. 

I’m not naive enough to say that racism doesn’t exist. It is an unfortunate reality of life. I’ve been around the world racism exists everywhere. Korea. Has it’s racists. Brazil also. England. If you really want to find people that are racist you don’t have to look to hard, they’re out there. They are stupid as the day is long, but they are out there. 

One thing I have learned from my travels. Your skin doesn’t need to be a specific hue for you to be racist. I’ve been lots of different places and there are a lot of different kind of racists. 

16 August 2019

So life is complex and complicated and really hard when humans are involved. I am tired in so many different ways right now. 

One thing that is fun recently is that my children and I decided to get a cat. She is a beautiful cat. We thought we would get off cheap because she was a stray. Ends up she was the most expensive stray. After the apartment fee, veterinarian, and items from the pet store so even I can take care of her. Wow. But she is a very sweet cat. 

I feel like I want to say so much. At the same time it would just be words. I’m not eve sure it would be good words. Life is more and more complicated all the time recently. I feel like I should ask for prayers. I’m just not entirely sure what I should ask people to pray for. 

12 de agosto de 2019

 Então, eu tenho que rir um pouco.  Eu fui acusado de ser racista outro dia.  Depois que eu disse que é melhor contar para a minha noiva brasileira, a pessoa voltou atrás e disse que o que eu estava escrevendo / dizendo me fez soar racista.

 Se as pessoas querem pensar em mim como racista porque isso as faz sentir mais justificadas sobre o que estão dizendo, tudo bem.  Vou deixar as pessoas pensarem o que ele quiser.  Aqueles que me conhecem sabem que eu sou uma das pessoas menos racistas que você poderia conhecer.

 Eu tenho uma maneira simples de pensar sobre raça.  Se você sangrar vermelho, você é um membro da raça humana.  Até agora eu não conheci ninguém que sangra de qualquer outra cor.  Se você conhece alguém, apenas deixe-os viver.

 Eu não sou ingênuo o suficiente para dizer que o racismo não existe.  É uma realidade infeliz da vida.  Eu estive em todo o mundo o racismo existe em toda parte.  Coréia.  Tem racistas.  O Brasil também.  Inglaterra.  Se você realmente quer encontrar pessoas que são racistas, você não precisa procurar muito, elas estão por aí.  Eles são estúpidos como o dia é longo, mas eles estão lá fora.

 Uma coisa eu aprendi das minhas viagens.  Sua pele não precisa ter um tom específico para você ser racista.  Eu tenho muitos lugares diferentes e há muitos tipos diferentes de racistas.

 16 de agosto de 2019

 Então a vida é complexa e complicada e muito difícil quando os humanos estão envolvidos.  Estou cansado de tantas maneiras diferentes agora.

 Uma coisa que é divertida recentemente é que meus filhos e eu decidimos comprar um gato.  Ela é uma linda gata.  Nós pensamos que sairíamos barato porque ela era uma perdida.  Termina ela era a mais cara.  Após a taxa do apartamento, veterinário e itens da loja de animais, então até eu posso cuidar dela.  Uau.  Mas ela é uma gata muito fofa.

 Eu sinto que quero dizer muito.  Ao mesmo tempo, seriam apenas palavras.  Eu não tenho certeza que seriam boas palavras.  A vida é cada vez mais complicada o tempo todo recentemente.  Eu sinto que deveria pedir por orações.  Eu não tenho certeza do que devo pedir às pessoas para que orem.

5 August 2019.........what to do, what to do

So I have decided I need to find a house to buy or rent. I am not sure what the best thing is to do at this time. My credit has been destroyed so badly I didn’t think I can do anything but lease. I am not happy about my options. I really would love to figure something out. I might ask my mother to go and drive us around I a couple of neighborhoods I have been thinking about. 

I need to get some boxes. Some things in my apartment need to be packed up for the time being. 

I am tired of some people that talk insistently. Then if it suits there purpose, you can’t get the person to say one word. I would love to be able to talk all the time. It tires me out me out to talk. I hate being so tired because there are other things I would like to do also. I have decided that talking is a much lower priority. I I have the idea that I would like to practice singing. It will help build my diaphragm muscles. And maybe I will learn how to speak better as well also. I will see how it goes.

3 August 2019

Running type exercise. *Legs exercise. *

I need to do something, anything. I have been acting tired and that doesn’t help. 

Write every morning. 

I have been acting like I am to tired. That makes me not want to do anything. 

Floss teeth 

I have been doing this. 

Volunteer

My volunteer work has been donating what I can. I can’t do much else but I can donate. 

Budget

I need to make a regular schedule. 

No robbing/borrowing from savings 

Ok.  

No Facebook until after budgeting is done *daily*

Not sure this is relevant now. 

Spend time in nature

No. 

Read Book of Mormon daily *Read New Testament daily*

So I finished the New Testament. Now I think that I need to go back and reread again since we are focusing on New Testament in church. 

“stand as witnesses” of the gospel at all times—and when necessary, use words.

29 July 

I want to say so much. It just doesn’t help at times. We all have our superpower. Mine is listening. Listening requires not talking. I like to talk. Listening is more important I would say. At times we have to talk. 

My children have been with me for a while. It has been fun, tiring, a never ending thrilling ride. 

Tires the heck out of me. 

August 3

So some people my not understand why I use a tablet for almost everything. Pens and pencils are very hard for me to use. I have a stylus but prefer to use my fingers. It is hard to hold a stylus. Books are wonderful,so I keep them on my tablet. It is much easier to turn pages. Paper and ink books I just destroy. 

But I love having quick access to almost everything I need. Some things I still keep just in a hard copy. Still I’m not as paranoid as I used to be. Some paranoia is justified but in my physical state not much.