31 July 2020......Day 4. Hmmm

Day 4

Something I am bothered by is how we, as humans, think we are so smart. 

Logic and emotion. 

Both are needed. 

The way I see it, God communicates with us constantly. Sometimes by logic. Sometimes by emotion. He is the Master of both. Both are needed. 

Make up your mind. 

Ask if that is right. 

Sometimes the answer is yes. 

Sometimes we don’t get an answer but forget what the question even is. 

Sometimes He leaves it up to us to decide. 

Are we asking to know something or do something?

So a little about my goals. 

Running type exercise

I want to. It’s just hard to be consistent for many reasons. 

Write every morning. 

It has been hard to want to do anything recently. I am starting to get better and I think writing needs to take priority.

Floss teeth 

Pretty good. I’ve got to stick to my schedule. 

Volunteer

Sure I guess. 

Budget

I need to do better. I have been trying to correlate all my bank accounts, automatic payments, and budgets.  I have so many things right now I am very busy. 

No robbing/borrowing from savings 

Not bad

Spend time in nature

Going outside for a while each day is all in up to right now. 

 

Read Book of Mormon daily Read General conference talks daily 

Not bad. I read President Nelson’s talk this morning. One thing that jumped out to me was, “I promise that as you increase your time in temple and family history work, you will increase and improve your ability to hear Him.”

Bake at least one loaf of bread a week month , hopefully sourdough.

I tried a recipe that was supposed to be super soft bread. It was not as soft as I would have hoped for. I think I need to do some research and try again. 

Now something different. I find myself torn. I have been an Apple enthusiasts for years. Now I find myself needing to help my son who spends entirely to much time on his phone. I’m not worried about what he is looking at, just how much time he is on the phone playing games and watching videos. 

With Apple parents have control until the person is Twelve. The day a person reaches thirteen parents seem to have very little control. 

I have been contemplating getting my son and myself Android phones for the simple fact that I could limit his screen time more easily. That is what I understand anyway. 

Someone please educate me. 

I don’t want a tracking device. I don’t want to listen in on conversations. All I want to do is limit screen time so my son will be a member of the family. 

I am truly at a loss. So many things for his and my situation require a phone. Also in this day and age phones are almost a requirement. 

29 July 2020...

Small aside. MainEvent was fun and the children had a blast. 

Day 3

So I have been watching The Big Bang Theory for a while. It’s an irritatingly funny show. 

My opinion after watching it and then comparing it to life is that Sheldon Cooper is more like President Trump than most people care to admit. The things Sheldon does are contrived and meant for comic effect. If it was real life I have no idea how a person like that would not get hit every day. 

In many ways the comedy works. I still find myself wanting to punch Sheldon in the head at times. 

It’s always been obvious that something is not quite normal about the president. Is he crazy?  As a former mental health professional I would say no. Still it is obvious that his pistons fire in a different order than many people are comfortable with. 

In not to many words he gets things done. That is reason enough, in my opinion, to make people mad at him. Especially in an industry, politics, that thrives on accomplishing as little as possible in as long a time as possible. President Trump has been able to do a lot. Imagine if Congress was working with him. Democrats and Republicans have each been doing what they can to slow him down as much as possible. 

He is in office as a Republican sure. Still he is essentially partiless. 

In my opinion the Republicans that controlled both houses in Congress the first two years he was in office did nothing to help him. They were obstacles that said they wanted to help, then didn’t do much. The Democrats were and still are a little more brazen about there trying to block the president’s efforts. 

So we, as a people in the US. Have a president that most likely never wanted to be president, but decided it would be the best thing he could do to help the country he loves and cares for deeply

28 July 2020....Day 2

Day 2

So a few things about me. 

I have watched a show off and on since I got out of the hospitals a few years ago, Ancient Aliens. Kind of fun but so full of assumptions and holes I don’t know how anyone takes it serious. You have to stop yourself from wanting to throw the TV out the window at times. That said it has helped me learn one thing. 

There are things  science can’t explain. Lots of things. 

If you want to find out about some of the things that scientists can’t explain, look on the internet there is lots out there. 

My personal opinion, most of what people accept as “science” is a new form of a Religion. It knows lots of things. It makes the assumption that it is the only answer for most things. Most religious organizations suffer from a similar flaw. They think they know everything. 

Science is important. 

Religion is important. 

As I see it they are two “religions” in there own right that are trying to compete with each other. 

If you rely only on science, you are only getting part of the picture. 

If you rely only on religion, you are only getting part of the picture. Either way if you rely on one more than the other, that sounds like the pinnacle of arrogance.

27 July 2020......Day 1. No frills

I have been writing quite a bit so I will post for the next few days. 

Day 1

We live in a world that is...I would call it stupid right now. If I wasn’t in a wheelchair, I would go live with some isolated African tribe and escape all the modernization and “conveniences”. 

“But behold, I am a man, and do sin in my wish; for I ought to be content with the things which the Lord hath allotted unto me.”  Alma 29:3 

I’m alive in the 21st century. 

If I wasn’t born during this time period and in the place I was, I would most likely be dead now. 

But that’s another story. 

I have been looking at the presidential candidates. I would say more than any other time people are forced to choose the lesser of the evils presented. 

The libertarian candidate has a few nice ideas but some ideas I could never support. 

The Democratic candidate has been in federal political office for longer than anybody should be. Borderline dementia. Some of his ideas are as slippery as an eel. It’s like hearing 1=0. Looking at him I would say it’s it is the epitome and definition of insanity. Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results

The Republican candidate. There is lots not to like.  Still he gets things done and tries to do things he has said he will do in as timely a manner as possible. Not that he’s a real Republican. But, that’s how he is running. The President, he does things I don’t like, but he throws a monkey wrench into the status quo. He can’t be defined as a typical “Republican”. Especially since I would say the Republicans in Congress when he entered office were as obstructing as the Democratic House is now.

So I was watching a video and thinking. 

Right now most people will cast their vote like this.

They will vote for the president 

OR

They will vote against the President. 

I highly doubt that anyone will vote FOR any one who is not the president. 

Those people may get votes. 

Only because whoever it is, is NOT the President. 

Democrat candidate will only get votes because he is not President Trump. 

Libertarian candidate will only get votes because she is not President Trump. 

The only platform any candidate has is they are not President Trump. 

8 July 2020......oh brother.

I find myself upset, beyond rational thought, about things I have no control over. 

Even if I hadn’t had a stroke I would have no control over. 

I’m not sure if that makes me feel better or worse. 

I won’t share exactly who the people are because no one would be able to do anything about the concerns I have. 

I have learned, mostly since the stroke that we, individually, have very little control over many things in our lives. 

Me and the stroke for example. It was partly breakage partly blockage. Either one can cause trouble by itself. I had both happen. 

I don’t have any of the possible indicators. 

I don’t drink. Never have. 

I don’t smoke. Never have. 

At the time I was running a lot. Usually five miles three times a week. 

So, that was ok. I didn’t die. 

Still, a blood vessel in my brain clogged. Another broke. 

If you want to say I’m lucky or unlucky you are probably right. 

There is only so much I have control over and even that can present limitations. I do what I can. 

One thing I laugh about is people trying to control things that we, as humans, have no control over. Anything that involves other people is normally out of our control.  Things we individually need to decide are; 

Can I persuade others to agree with me about this? 

Can I personally do anything? 

What if no one wants to join me?

So a little about my goals. 

Running type exercise

 I can’t run by myself. I can try a treadmill. I have. It can wear me out quick. I have my manual wheelchair. It is not easy for me to push myself. I need someone to push me over and past the threshold for my front door. Still, I want to get out more. Not the best. Not the worst. 

Write every morning. 

Writing with one finger on a tablet is slow. Somedays I am to tired to do a damn thing. I try to avoid watching TV. Some days it’s the only thing I have strength to do. Still I have been trying to write more. Maybe someday I will do good. 

Floss teeth 

Thank goodness for flossers that can help me. Plane floss would leave me out of luck. I’ve been doing better lately. 

Volunteer

I can’t do what I would prefer. About the only thing I can do is throw money at problems. Oh well. Another thought. Money is bull shit, you have to spread you have to spread it out to help things to grow. 

Budget

I can’t do much at times. I need to do better. 

No robbing/borrowing from savings 

Not bad. 

Spend time in nature

I will go outside. In summer like right now it’s way to hot to want to be out. Winter has some nice days but usually it’s to wet and cold to be comfortable. At least there is rarely snow. 

Read Book of Mormon daily Read General conference talks daily 

 Not doing bad.

Bake at least one loaf of bread a week, hopefully sourdough. 

I have been overwhelmed by bread. 

I have been thinking I need to back bread just once a month. Normally I would just give it away, but everyone thinks death is going to take them if they go out.