Monday, September 15, 2014 this seems to be a very busy week.

What a week this has been. 

I started out by going to the doctor and they sent me to the ER. Not the greatest way to spend a day but certainly not the worst. 

My left leg is kind of swollen but the hospital did some tests and I guess I am ok. Still I don't think I would recommend spending more than half the day in the emergency room. There are much better ways to spend a day.

I got my storage here and I was able to get it put in to some place new. I think that should be a good thing.  Not as many people showed up as I was hoping but we still got it unloaded pretty quick. 

I have been occupied with a lot of matters lately that seem to take a lot of time. What do I need to do? We will see.   I would really like to do some traveling but I'm not looking forward to it all of the possibilities. The idea of sitting for a long time doesn't bother me but needing to use the restroom does.

Well I better get this posted. 

Tuesday, September 9, 2014. I'm trying to figure out my new schedule.

So I have been trying to do some figuring out how to do some traveling. Everything seems to be more  difficult in a chair. 

The easiest way seems to be by bus. I am not the biggest fan of buses, but I rode them all the time on my mission in Brazil. I may just get a wanderlust and disappear for a while. 

The Americans with Disabilities Act(ADA) really has some good things in it sometimes. Actually the good stuff was always there. I just learn about it more and more in kind of a piecemeal way. 

I have recently learned that people don't like the way I choose not to talk about my life. There are a few reasons for that. 

First, there is a saying that two people can keep a secret if one of them is dead. From my own experience I can say that this is true. 

B or second,  it can cause me a great deal of physical discomfort to talk for an extended time. Not that I don't like to talk. I do very much. But it is not my favorite activity any more. I am not sure that it ever was...well that is a very non Danish way of saying how I used to be. 

Three, people talk to much in general....l forgot what I was going to write. 

Well I had better get this posted or I never will. 

 

Sunday,August 24, 2014 ouch. My...

So  today is Sunday. I have been thinking that I am going to do my blog posts on days other than on the weekends. It can be to much work on some days. And I just don't know the best days. 

My teeth are just sore lately. I have a very strange thing with my teeth lately. I have this thing so that everything is basically numb on my right side. Including my teeth and I guess most everything else also inside and out. 

The past few days I have noticed that my teeth on my left side have been hurting when I eat. It is no fun to have your teeth hurting. 

This morning as I was getting reddy to go. I was worried that I might hurt my teeth with some of what there was to be eat. And it didn't hurt. I made the association that if the food was cold it hurts my teeth if the food was warm it feels like my teeth are fine. 

I am going to have to call the dentist to see when I can get into tomorrow.  

It is just so weird to have my teeth hurting like they are. I have been having the feeling of numbness for a while now but the teeth pain is pretty new. 

August 17, 2014. What a day. What a week.

So what do I say.?

This has been a crazy weekend.

There is so much I want to say. I need to find some different days to present my blog. 

I am just so tired right now. 

Taker care. 

Aug 13, 2014. Let's back up just a little.

So to everyone that helped me to move thank you.  I am still in texas. Still in San Antonio. Still alive barley. 

There is this quote that I try to live by. "That at which we persist at doing becomes easier.  Not that the nature of the task has become easier,but our ability to perform the task has increased."

Well it goes something like that. 

I have to admit that this seems to be true. But it can be overdone. I was on my bed and yes it did get pushed up against the wall. I have the habit of working out on my bed. The other day I was trying to raise both of my legs at the same time. I can raise each leg individually no problem so I shouldn't have any problem lifting both at the same time. And I didn't. 

Next morning my back was a little sore. I thought my former physical therapist would be happy to hear.  

Second day I had a harder timer getting  into the bathroom in the morning. 

Next day I could barely stand.

Then again. I could barely stand to get up 

This morning not fun and as I was trying to move from my bed to my chair I ended up in a kneeling position on the floor. Not so bad but I could feel myself going down even further. It took every bit of strength that I had to not fall all the way and I could still feel myself going down. 

My mom and her husband helped me back into my chair. 

I have decided that I need to be more careful during my working out. I can do a lot but  I need to do a little bit less than I think I should.  If I don't, I might get hurt and that can be miserable. Like right now I am doing a lot of sitting and using a heating pad. It can be no fun.  Just standing up can be an ordeal. I can have a really hard time standing up straight. And going to the restroom can be insane. 

August, 6, 2014 it's not time to go to bed.

I decided I had to write. So I hope you don't mind. 

Yesterday was one of the worse days I have had for a while. But I was able to find a place that needed to be fixed. Some times I have the thought that I found at despair.com. "It may be that the purpose of your life is to serve as a warning to others."  Well if that's not the purpose of my life yesterday sure seemed like it. 

I went into my room to workout and as I was on my bed and getting up onto way knees I lost my balance and I fell off the bed. This would not been so bad if I had fallen left but I fell right and was between the bed and the wall. 

Since it was not such a bad position all things considering I decided to take a nap. That went well but then I woke up. 

I thought I could just lay there all the while and wait until someone got home. Guess not. I decided to sit up. Not the easiest task in my condition or position.

I think it took me an hour or more to get out from behind the bed. I would scoot a little bit and I thought I was not moving for a while, but when I discovered that I was moving some. So I kept trying and soon I was out from behind the bed. 

Now to get on to the bed. Easy right? Wrong. After I rested for a while I tried to get on to the bed. I thought it would be fairly easy I don't know how many times I tried to get up but it was not as easy as I thought. It was finally time that my mom and her husband came home. What happened started at around 3:00 and mom got home around 7:30 plus or minus. 

I never got on to the bed. 

I was so upset I did not know what to do I just started bawling. 

I can do a lot more than I could last year but I still can't do what I think I should.   

 

August,3, 2014 it's still me.

I'm back. Can you name the movie that I am paraphrasing From.  (Poltergeist II is one of the possibilities. The other is ghostbusters 2.)

There is more that I have to say than I will ever know how to say. 

I am really tired today.  

If there was a difficult week this was it. I don't think that I have ever had such a crazy week before. My mind has been racing because of all that I need to do. It is kind of odd because I will think about what has to be done and than I forget it. So I start to do something else and I don't think about what needs to be do and then it comes to my mind and for some reason I don't do it. 

I have been trying to figure out the endless list of things that I need to get done these days. It is not all just fun being in a wheelchair. Most days are a lot of work. 

It is hard for me to want to write these days. But I have some ideas to get me writing more.