16 May 2023……and now for something completely different, almost

 

So I am getting the feeling I need to do my writing different. That said I will give you an update about how I am doing with some of my other goals and stuff. 

Make bread every week. 

     I had my wife help make bread last night. It is awesome to have fresh homemade bread. Anything store bought pales in comparison.

Floss my teeth daily. 

     For the most part I’m doing well. I hope to have my teeth for years still. 

          

 Grow chilli peppers and trees

      Everything has been doing well. We have had lots of rain. That is good. 

        

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

      So people know, for me standing up is exercising. Also if I’m standing I’m not in my chair. I always have had grandiose plans. K.I.S.S.

          

          

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

     This is hard for me because I get the impression Hildete doesn’t want me to help. I am ready to help if she wants. Granted, I get sucked in by my own stuff sometimes, so, I don’t know. 

         

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

     Working on money seems to be a favorite hobby of mine. 

If anyone knows the Dave Ramsey teaching money management, I highly recommend it. Also, the Rabbi Lapin, information is very good.  God wants everyone to be rich. That way we can all help each other better. In a slightly related subject. I had some rolls of quarters and rolls of dollar coins. They were just in a paper box. They went missing. The problem is I didn’t secure them by locking them up. I can be upset because someone took them, but ultimately it was my responsibility to secure them properly. Tough lesson. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

    Television has a terrible hold on me. 

        

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it. 

      I want us to play more. Still it can be hard sometimes. 

    

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

          Reading general conference talks is easy. Other stuff gives me more trouble. Still, I download an app with several versions of the Bible. I thought that I would look at and read the Jewish version of the Old Testament. Jesus and all the original apostles were Jews and were taught in the Jewish ways and traditions. Going with that thought, to come closer to the understanding of the Savior, the writing of everything leading up to His time will help. 

So I will only be posting some of my goals here monthly, or so. I think I need to work on other things that I can post here. Most people probably don’t care about all of the details of my life, so that will be less frequent.

21 April 2023……this world is stupid if you don’t look away.

What is your thoughts. 

WHY do people think they can’t love someone they disagree with. 

I wear fingernail polish. Does that make me unlovable. 

Now more important thoughts. 

My plants.

 Lemon tree. (Lemon drop). Half lemon half kumquat. 

I have been sitting here looking at my lemon tree. I finally got it repotted. I got past blooming and now tiny little lemons are starting to grow. 

The palms

They were volunteer. I bought some soil for a tomato plant, and the soil was based on coconut/palm trees. They got bitten by the cold at Christmas time, but they are coming back strong. 

Citronella 

My mom gave me this one because she was moving back to Utah. It’s a tough plant. It was killed by frost and cold the past three years. But it comes back. I had some wonderful people from church help me repot it so hopefully we are good for at least three more years.

 

Avocado

After my moms husband died I wanted my children to honor him. This is the Grandpa Larry tree. Grandpa Larry loves avocados. The cold last Christmas time froze the leaves off, but it’s coming back with vengeance. 

Maple 

This is one of the impulse buys I have allowed myself to make. Walmart can have very cool stuff sometimes. 

Catnip and chives

The catnip has really taken over. The chives we don’t know how to use properly.  My cat loves the catnip. But I have been told it can have a drug like effect on cats.  

Grapefruit

We started six seeds. We got four. Who knows what will happen. 

Potato (I think)

It started growing so my wife start watering it. Then I put the tomato cage around it because it was falling over. 

Peppers

these should be mini bells. We started with 5. Two died. So we will see what happens. It’s been sending out lots of flowers and growing a lot. 

Then I have three other pots that are just sitting and waiting at the moment 

My marvelous wife keeps things watered nicely. I can do it but it is a very slow process by myself. 

So. I love to sit outside with my plants. Watching them grow day by day can help me have a more realistic view of how life goes. 

14 April 2023…….ugh. Just ugh.

Week 7

Make bread every week. 

      So my wife discovered one of the bread loaves made with olive oil. It was very crumbly. Butter works better. 

     

Floss my teeth daily. 

          I’m doing ok. 

Grow chilli peppers and trees. 

        My plants are all growing well. The leaves are still coming out. I have peppers that are budding. One of my trees is starting nicely. 

        

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

          So I have decided that I need to plan to go to the gym every other week right now.  Some things can’t stop, they just need to slow down. It is so difficult to go somewhere everyday. 

          

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

         I try to help with English study. It seems like driving study is more important to her right now. I’m ok with that. That said we need to study like we are one a mission. 

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

         I set an alarm for different things to do every day for my budgeting and accounting every week. Maybe I need to spend more time, an hour maybe, studying and planning other things that I can do to to prepare how to invest my money. My budgeting I need to spend more on future plans. I don’t do well at planning at times. But planning is the an important part. That said I need to follow my plan. Last year I did not follow a plan. It got me in trouble for a while. That said being in a wheelchair and not having full use of your body, expenses pop up. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

          I need to spend more time on audio books. Maybe I will try more fantasy. 

     

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it. 

      We have not been playing this week. Ugh. Maybe we should play early in the day. 

    

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

          Not to bad this last week. It’s been fun seeing the new general conference talks. I loved Easter. I have been loving some of my studying. 

I hate not being able to drive some days. I was referred to a health care provider that is 30 miles from where I live. In another county. The bus system I normally use doesn’t go there. Fine, I found another service to take me. The first time I went great. I just called today for next week. They have a ride that could take me there, but they haven’t found a ride that can bring me home. 

So,I will call tomorrow I will see if I can finalize setting up my ride. 

Life has so many things trying to grab my attention. One thing that has been fascinating to me is eating. There are so many different diet schemes.

Vegan,vegetarian, some vegetarians eat milk products, some eat fish, some eat birds. There is paleo. There is carnivore. 

I am so confused by all of the different things I have seen some days. 

I can’t be vegan. I like bacon and steak to much. Cow meat was made to make your stomach, and thus you, happy. 

I have discovered people that can’t eat raw vegetables. I’ve know people that can’t eat cooked vegetables. My wife has difficulty with lots of different things. 

My conclusion there are almost as many dietary needs as there are people in the world. Most food is social. Most of us limit our selves to the food that is close to us. Oh well. Humans are creatures of habit. 

4 April 2023……happy First Contact day , bro.

Week 5

Make bread every week. 

     I really don’t need to make more bread this week. I made twice as much last week. I haven’t noticed a difference in olive oil or butter. I will let you know later. 

Floss my teeth daily. 

     Maybe I need to eat more corn on the cob, so I have a “reason” everyday. 

     

Grow chilli peppers and trees. 

     My trees and chillis are growing great. The weather is weird lately. 

   

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

     I need to spend more time standing up. Plus I don’t understand why I am so tired lately. 

     

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

     We have been working some. We have been working on a lot of driving stuff. 

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

     I have been working on lots of different things. I feel like I need to buy things. Almost like there is a water leaking though a dam. But nothing happens if you don’t buy something immediately. The sun still sets. The sun still rises. I have been reading and listening to Dave Ramsey. Figuring out how to pay off my debt and start saving. It is very interesting. “Debt is dumb.”  I really truly believe that a house is the only kind of debt that is worth having. I still want to be a good Jew/Israelite and understand how more of the the Bible teaches about money. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

     I need to do better. I watch TV because I am so tired that I don’t know how much I would be able to pay attention to audio books and writing can take more energy than most people realize. 

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it. 

    I played five card draw and blackjack with my wife. I find it interesting how excited someone can get about 10 cents. That is part of my goal. Easy come easy go. It’s just small amounts of money. We will move to higher amounts of money over the next weeks. 

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

Not good 

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Week 6

 Make bread every week. 

     I was wrong last week we ate 4 loaves of bread fast. Didn’t notice any difference between bread with butter mixed in or bread with olive oil. So that’s that we did have to mix some bread last week. 

Floss my teeth daily. 

     Some days I do well and mostly not to well. 

     

Grow chilli peppers and trees. 

     The trees are doing well and getting more leaves. New leaves are still coming out. The chillis are growing nice I need to repot some grapefruit I started from seed. I love how things grow. 

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

     I have been not wanting to do a lot, again. I am trying to stand more and sit up straight every day. 

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

     Again, mostly driving stuff. My wife signed up for the Spanish language course, we both thought there would be enough similar to help. There is a lot between Spanish and Portuguese that they are similar. That said there is so much different that we can both get very confused. I can help with some Spanish words because they are part of the culture here in San Antonio. So, are we studying English or Spanish. 

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

     I have been working on my money most days. It is easy to forget if we have to go somewhere. But I am hoping to start investing and saving more very soon. I have the idea to only have debt on a house if I can. Anything else cars, education, anything else try to avoid debt like the plague . Some may say, “you have to have debt for your education.”  Bull. I new a lady when I was in college who would skip college for a semester or two to save money. Then use the money she earned to pay. Then me. I used the Army to help pay for my masters degree.  Education doesn’t mean just going to college. Education, very important. College/University, less so. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

     I need to do better. Any ideas?

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it.

Use small amounts of money. We will move to higher amounts of money over the next weeks.

    In some ways we might still be recovering. So no we didn’t play this week. 

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

     I have decided I want to write. Threrefore I need to do it first thing. Reading and listening to scriptures is slightly less intense for me. I just need to set alarms on my phone to remind me to do it better. 

So I have this problem. I get so tired I don’t want to do anything. I feel like I have to drag myself to the bathroom. This morning I had to get up to go to the bathroom. In my mind I wanted to go back to bed after. It requires so much energy to get into and out of my wheelchair. I will sit on the toilet for thirty minutes, an hour, or maybe longer. There are days I can be fast. Then there are the other days. On the other days I’m just there. 

I have so many thoughts that go through my mind recently. All sorts of topics. 

Nothing bothers me more than how people are so cruel to each other. Most humans have their other favorite humans, but that doesn’t go to the rest of the world. I wish I understood why most humans feel they have to force their ideas on others.  Share, if someone doesn’t like the idea maybe the next human will like the idea. 

I have so much I want to say but everything is fighting to come out at once. 

29 March 2023……wow

I have been watching senate hearings of Secretary Mayorkas. In listening to what he says to the senators I would say he is trying to gas light the senators. 

Wow. How can anyone be as thick as Mayorkas. 

25 March 2023……ohf

Week 4

Make bread every week. 

     Good. We tried putting olive oil in one batch and the second batch butter. I will let you know what I think. 

Floss my teeth daily. 

     Getting better. Most nights I am getting it done lately. 

     

Grow chilli peppers and trees. 

     Everything seems to be growing well. That is the beauty of plants. After they are in the dirt they mostly need water and some plant food. Also, my trees are getting buds. I was worried about the Japanese maple for a while. 

   

Exercise at least every other day. Spend time out of my wheelchair.

     I have decided that spending time out of my wheelchair includes standing up. It works all the muscles in my body. So standing works so many muscles. Never realized. 

     

Help Hildete study English, at least one hour every day. Help her learn enough English so she can get a job as she would like and so she can go to the nail salon by herself. 

     I am really trying but it seems to be hard to work with her. She studies duo lingo a lot. But other things she is a very hard to work with. We did finally get her social security card so she could get a job. The problem is most people around here speak English or Spanish. Portugese is a one off. I’m at a loss. Any suggestions?

Work on money daily at least five minutes; budgeting, planning, or accounting, where did the money go, daily and make sure I am saving. Learn to be a good Jew, about money. 

     I am going to choose one day a week that I work on budgeting for NEXT month. Money  management and planning is very important. I just hate how much things cost. The inflation over the past year or so. Getting some things paid down is not the easiest. Also, we have been running around so much this week it is hard to do things. 

Avoid Television as much as possible, listen to audio books, or spend time writing.

     I have been having a hard time avoiding the gravitational suck of black hole caused by the television. 

Learn poker. Several different games and help my wife and children learn it. 

    I have been lazy most this week and not wanting to do anything. 

Study gospel topics, Book of Mormon, General conference, Old Testament, New Testament, Doctrine & Covenants.

    I need to spend more time with the scriptures. That is why I need to avoid TV, YouTube and other black holes. 

Like I said running around a lot. One dentist appointment. One orthodontist appointment. One oral surgeon appointment. One appointment with the primary care doctor. One sleep study. This has been a busy week. 

Plus on top that we have to ride the bus most places. I have a car. But I don’t have a license. My wife is finally able to do her driver’s course now that she has her social security card, the biggest speed bumb is the course is in Spanish. Spanish and Portuguese are similar, not the same. 

I am so confused at how some people think that humans are just animals. I agree that humans and animals have similar characteristics, but saying that a human is “related” to any of the countless animals is a leap of faith at best, and a leap in the wrong direction. 

I agree that animals can share similar attributes to humans. That doesn’t mean I or anyone is related to a great ape or anything else.  

Most of the sciences have evolved into humanistic religions that try to convince everyone that they are the only “true” religion. 

In order to convince people that they are not a “religion” is by not calling themselves a religion. Religion is a type of dirty word now days.  As an example, I can say “fuck” and almost no one will bat an eye. If I say “religion” I have commented a sin and must be chastised in most society. 

In recent days, I want a house. I personally like my apartment in many ways. My wife thinks we should have a house. My children think the same thing. I don’t know if my stepson wants a house. 

The fact that I use a wheelchair and don’t drive adds a layer of difficulty that most people will never understand. I would like to have many things close. At the same time I want to live set apart from a city. 

In many ways I like London, England because it is more walkable than other cities I know. The only city in the US, that I know, with similar walkability is New York. Living in New York seems like you are playing with your life, you have a death wish. Plus you add how expensive it is. No thank you. As lack luster as my life is, I seriously question anyone that wants to be there to live or anything. I wonder how miserable your life has become to have a man who had a stroke and uses a wheelchair feel sorry for you. That sounds almost condescending. Sorry if you take it that way. 

18 March 2023…..so a thought

https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2022/10/31causse?lang=eng

I was reading this conference talk and the impression came, that our bodies are NOT our own. God has loaned us “our” bodies. For the time being they are his. Someday he will give them to us. When and how, I have no idea. 

That gives me insight when King Benjamin says, “I say unto you that if ye should serve him who has created you from the beginning, and is preserving you from day to day, by lending you breath, that ye may live and move and do according to your own will, and even supporting you from one moment to another—I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole souls yet ye would be unprofitable servants.” Book of Mormon, Mosiah 2:21

For the time being “my” body in not my body.  Everyone’s body is on loan for the time being. 

I could try to explain further,but I would just confuse everyone.