Today is the first day of the rest of your life. So what if you woke up and you could not move anything but your head and neck and you are the only one that you can understand what you are trying to say. All I can say is that it is no fun.
Let's all go back in time a few months. When I first "woke up" from the sleep I found myself in I was trying to understand what was going on. I really had no idea. I thought there was something holding me in my bed. Something I didn't understand. And I guess I was right, I had had a stroke but I didn't know that. I kept trying to move but I thought some kind of new technology that I didn't understand was being used to keep me lying in the bed I was in. But I really didn't understand what the problem was. The first day I was " awake" I was bombarded by people telling me all kinds of things that I didn't understand. I understand what they were saying now but at the time I didn't. One of the first things I was ask was if I could read the massage that was in Portuguese that a friend had sent me. Yes I did understand it. I could understand everything that was said to me. But I did not understand why people were making things so complicated for me.
I was probably in a sort of dream state for a while but after I "woke up" I had a few moments I was less than lucid. Going back the other direction I do remember on friend was sitting in my room and I wanted to talk to him so badly. I fell asleep and when I woke up he was gone.
That night I think it was that night, I woke up because someone had left the TV on. I so badly wanted to turn off the TV off but I was so tired that I didn't care to much at the moment. Who ever had left the TV on had put it on what I think was the military channel, and some infomercial asking you to donate money to Israel was on. I was thinking someone just give them some money already to shut them up. I guess the TV show could not read my thoughts because it just kept going.
What happened next I am not sure I think the next day was the first day I remember but I'm not sure.
I also thought that I needed to get back to the National Guard and training that I thought was yesterday, I did not realize I had been in the hospital for three weeks or whatever it was. I had no idea why I was were I was. I tried to communicate, but no one understood what I was trying to say.
I can notice some difference in the way I talk now but I thought that what I was saying normal things. I guess it was difficult if not impossible to understand.
Well I better stop for now. Take care every one.
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