Well for the most part the past few days have been very interesting. I need to make sure I take some of my meds better. I found out today that I forgot to take a med last night. And the one pill I forgot helps me control my emotions better.
I wanted to share that it is getting easier to walk. Almost a year ago I was told that my wife was going to her dads from the conversation that followed I was told by my wife that she needed to find someone to watch that our kids. She ended up going with my kids to visit her family. I was diluted enough to think that I could watch the kids myself. I thought that I would be able to do all the things like did before. That I would be able to walk around while leaning on the walls for support from room to room. I would probably have to go to bed and rest but the kids could watch tv. Now I understand that I probably would have been able to do zilch.
What I can do now is less than that I wanted to do before. And it has been almost a year.
It is hard for me to accept this at times. Today is one of those days.
The One thing that is the hardest fore me to understand is how a person can say something but mean and do something entirely different. Not that we don't all do it but it can be a real pain in the butt. I was told by my psychiatrist that some thing I do is expect the world to be just and fair. My way of thinking if you say you will do something you just do it.
Can I understand why some people think I should have stayed in the hospital. Sure. If they want to join me I will gladly go back. Enough said concerning the matter.
I can do a lot more than I was able to do before but right now it is really easy to tell the low energy days from the higher energy days. And you never know when exactly they will be. Today is more of a low energy day two days ago my energy was higher.
Well I have a lot to say but I am so tired right now. Take care.
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