So here I am in my new place. It's not so bad in fact it's pretty nice but well I am not sure were to begin.
It's not like I remember that if I was such a pain before my stroke. I guess it am a pain now. I try to keep myself under such tight control maybe I am to strict with myself most of the time. And I try to keep myself in to much control. I am not sure I can find a happy medium. I got upset at my mom because I thought she was treating me to much like a baby as we were on our way to a doctors appointment the other day. When we got to the doctors appointment the dr barely talked to me. What a pain. She kept talking and turning back to my mom and my mom kept directing her back to me. Thanks mom.
After we went to the doctors we went to the bingo night that is every week. I have been going to it for a long time now and it is a lot of fun. It is even more fun when you win which I have had the privilege of doing two weeks in a row. I almost had the same privilege of doing the same thing this last time.
It has been an interesting coming to the apartment that I am in now. The first two days we were here it was a real pain especially If i needed to go to the restroom. I tried to figure out a few different ways. I finally, yesterday got a bar to help me pull myself up and if I could only say how wonderful that was to have that I can't say enough.
There is an idea that I have had that in so many ways that if I just got to someplace else I would just magically get better. I guess it doesn't happen that way. Things just seem harder. I guess that is good at times but it is sure no fun.
This one lady at the last place I was has some chocolate lab puppies. It sounds a lot of fun but now that I have been here a few days I just think it would be to hard. I like the idea but it would be so hard right now.
The first of my therapists came by and it wasn't to bad. I seemed to have more difficult to walk than normal but I think the therapist was pleasantly surprised I think overall.
I really like some of the niceties this place has to offer but I am sure I will need and have to go slower than my mind wants to. I have prided my self for the longest time that I am a realist but now I'm not sure in that regard. Maybe I was just drowning in my own reality and maybe I still am.
I had a friend come by with some videos a couple of days. After the fact I found out he was more here as a babysitter at my moms request. I didn't mind to just watch the videos that was a lot of fun. I need to learn to be a better host. I didn't get to hungry so I didn't offer more. If I just ate like I used to I would would probably blow up like a balloon. So it might be hard for some to not eat. I have this thing that I like to stay very clean. And I have noticed that most foods can be more messy than I like.
So this is a new adventure for me. If you have any questions for me I would be glad to answer what I can.
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