"I know I can be very stubborn and I was that way before. I know that there are plenty of things we won't agree on and I would never expect her to just give anything. But the stroke has exacerbated things that are very hard to explain"-me little over a year ago.
I am not the same person that I was in many ways. I will attempt to mention some of them.
I am a very emotional person. I was before my stroke. Now it can be even more so. The other day I bawled and bawled. I had my reasons but once I started I had a really hard time stopping. Maybe that's normal. I'm not sure. If one emotion grabs me I'm basically stuck with it for a while. I can see how sertian kinds of behavior would work better at times. I guess you could say I get stuck in a rut and I can't get out.
I am a very independent person. I like to do things for myself. I try all kinds of things. Some I can do others I can't. As much as I hate to ask for help sometimes I need to. I have had occasion that I have been left to do something myself. It is so frustrating when I figure out I can't do something. I try to do some leg lifts an that is very tough but I thought it would be easier.
I don't like staying in bed. I do more these days. It is such a chore getting up some days that I think I might as well stay up. I have to get up like everyone. The thing is I can get so sore laying down and I have to sit up in my chair.
I realize that there are really so many areas that can be different in some way for me. Life is really different for me. The thing is I thought I had it all figured out and then all the rules changed.
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