I have been thinking about something that I think needs to be said. There are many people that may think that I am doing things the wrong way. Nothing new for me.
I have four of the most adorable kids in the world. If you don't believe me just ask me. And if you are still doubting you can judge for yourself. They are pretty dang awesome.
The fact is they have a pretty awesome mom. Just to make things clear I do not want her back. But she is an amazing lady.
She is the mother of four very energetic children. Anyone that can work with my kids with as much work as they require is awesome. When they spend the weekend with me I'm exhausted after. She is a very good actress. Our one son has learned to love to perform as well. She can make very amazing cakes. Her decorating skills are pretty amazing. While I would say that I was a better cook than her before my stroke she is very good. (I'm still waiting for the golosh you promised to make me.) She is a very good driver. I am not fearful for my life when I ride with Sara. Incidentally my wife Marcy is a very good driver also. Marcy might say otherwise. There are lots of reasons why Sara is amazing. I do not have time to list them all. I will reiterate the fact that I do not wish to be back with Sara in anyway. Is she a bad person? That is for you to decide. I would say no. Your opinion is yours.
I am trying to find out about a decision that the VA made and trying to find out if the DAV can help me. It comes down to semantics. I had a stroke. No debate there. Is a stroke an injury or an illness. I would say its a silly question but it's the question of the day.
One thing that I do want to make clear is how I use words. If I say I will consider something I may decide yes I may decide no. It is my choice. Everyone has than same privilege. Before my stroke I would talk about everything. I get very tired from talking now. I can still talk your ear off. It makes me very tired to talk these days. I text a lot more. It is such a slow process for me to type anything that it really is a dilemma at times. Type or talk. Neither one is really fun for me. The other reason that I choose typing over talking is the fact that it is easier for me to leave my emotions out of most everything. I can still be overly emotional when I type but it is not as easy. Someone may choose to talk a lot. I choose to talk very little. Who is right? Who is wrong? I see it as asking which came first the chicken or the egg? Pointless in my opinion. We all live and die still.
There are so many things that I do want to express to people but for whatever reason I can't. I have a kind of unique perspective. If you have time and can tolerate me I would be glad to share it with you.
You are amazing, Nathan! I say write down everything and anything you would like people to know and post it! I would read it and I'm sure many others would too! Go for it!
ReplyDeleteSome people use art to express feelings. I don't know if that is up your avenue of interests or not, but you may want to explore it. They say that a picture is worth a thousand words. It may be easier to create a picture than to type or speak a thousand words!
ReplyDeleteI wonder if you can call the stroke an accident because it caused you to have accidents! I remember you saying that you were going up some steps and you fell without tripping or anything. It was right before your stroke. After your stroke, I wondered if the two incidents were related. Hmmm?