Tuesday 2 February 2016......really. (By the way. I hate that expression)

Overall, people suck. At the same time they are fun. What a dilemma.

 

There is a lot about my life that is no fun. The simple fact is I can remember when I could do a lot less. I hated being stuck in bed all day, every day, night after night. Slowly learning to make my body move again. I can remember all to well the days I could not move and I was basically furniture. Most furniture stays where we but it. I think some wish I was still that way. That was how I was for a long time. 

If you need to be reminded again I had a Stroke. A brain injury/illness. Let's consider what the brain does for us. 

Thinking and memory. Thinking for me is fuzzy at times. Memory since the stoke the stroke can be questionable. Before my stroke I can remember things from when I was two. Yes 2. 

Emotions. My emotions can be volatile. Some people have had the misfortune of experiencing them first hand and for that I cannot apologize enough. I try to keep them under control but unfortunately they can get the better of me. They used to give me more trouble. Some people say I can act very immature and there may be some truth there. I don't notice it myself most of the time. I have to catch signals people give at times. 

Movement. This is the most obvious. The wheelchair is a dead giveaway. Dexterity. Movement. Talking. The list goes on. The problem is there are muscles that are obvious and less obvious.  

I get very tired of the idea that some people send, even though they don't talk, that I am stupid or an idiot in some way. I talked with a lady one day and her husband, who is in a wheelchair, he gets very frustrated by the same type of thing happening to him. People see the chair and whether we know it or not we make all kinds of assumptions. I do it myself. I wonder if Stephan Hawking has to deal with people thinking he's stupid. 

 

I do have days that I think to myself "my life sucks". I really have quite a good life. Everyone feels crumby some times.