3 September 2021…..wow, wow, wow

So I have decided to grow peppers. I have one ghost pepper and

 one bird pepper. 

I started some scorpion peppers from seed. 

I love the part of the world I’m in. There are basically two growing seasons. So I hope I didn’t plant to late for the plants I started from seeds. I hope that I can grow everything year round. 

I have a few other seeds that I will start later. The biggest problem I have at the moment is I don’t have the space because I live in an apartment. I want to have a house some days. I know that I can’t do anything myself for maintenance. I would need to hire someone that can help with that. I can make a very good mess but cleaning it up that is something very different. 

There are lots of things I would like to do. For example I found a bee keeping course. 

All academic.

 It has been fun. I would love to do bee keeping because you can get honey out of it. The thing I have learned most from the course is I do not have the capacity to do the things that are required to do bee keeping. Desire only helps so much. 

So what do I do. Maybe I can be the benefactor for someone that really wants to do bee keeping. Who knows. 

I found something that I can do easily. Making vinegar.

 You only have to stir it once a day for 20-30 days. Then run it through a strainer and put it in a bottle. Granted, I need some help filtering and bottling it. But that is once a month. Stirring it one daily is right up my alley. So I have figured out how to use/waste my time once again. I think the vinegar I am making will be good for bbq sauce. Apricot. 

Now something completely different. 

I was talking with my children. They don’t like it when I get upset. Fair. I don’t like it when they get upset. Fair. I don’t know anyone that likes it when someone gets upset. That said I do not like or agree with how people call it a “negative” emotion. It is just an emotion. 

Unpleasant? I would agree with that. 

Emotions are not positive or negative. They are pleasant or unpleasant. 

Justifying emotion is a very loaded term. Everyone has the right to feel the way they feel. I don’t always agree with peoples reasons for why they feel a certain way. Still who am I to say that the why someone feels is “right” or “wrong”. I may not like the choice of a person at any given moment. That is my right. 

So as my children and I were talking. The story of the Savior and driving the money changers out of the temple came to mind. I’m sure some people may not have liked his anger. Whether you think it was justified or unjustified. Does it matter?  

I don’t want anyone to think that I am justifying not acting towards others in love and compassion. That said anger is not a “negative” emotion. It is an emotion. Full stop.