Basically I hate crying now. Partly because I do it so much now. I want to talk someone. I cry. I see someone new. I cry. The sun rises. I cry.
Ok maybe I'm not that bad. But nearly. If you thought I was bad before my stroke, I am so much worst now.
Crying is difficult mainly because almost every one assumes your sad. Sometimes I am sad. But I can be happy and cry also. But whatever the reason crying is something that is extremely easy easy for me.
It is not that I want to cry , it is extremely hard for me to talk. It is very hard for me not to cry. I have a hypo bulbar something, that happened with my stroke. It basically means that I can be hyper-emotional. Like yesterday I was not able to do something I had before. And I had a meltdown like I haven't had for awhile.
I tried to talk to a large assembly of people at church and it was so hard for me to get out the few words out I did it was less than pleasant for me. In order not to not cry I close my eyes when I have to talk in certain people of find myself in certain situations. But I don't know what situations will cause me to cry so please don't be to offended if I talk to you with my eyes closed.
If you think I am making excuses, all I can say is, it sucks to be me. If you have comments that's fine. And hope that everyone is well.
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