January 8 2014.

So it was really hard to get up this morning. Not sure why but it was really hard.   I had to lay there for a few minutes for my body to work.

Just a question before we go on.  Does anyone know my password? Not sure what it is right now. 

Yesterday was my birthday. It was fun,  but in so many ways it was just a Tuesday.  Thanks for all the well wishes and gifts. 

Sometimes I think in the words of the dead milk men album, "what the hell happened to me"?  What they say in a sort of tounge in cheek humor I say with a sort of whimper and whine. 

I am told I had a stroke.  I was shown the brain scans of the MRI and I have been trying to find out more about it.  It's not very easy.  From my study's and from what other people have told me about 90% of the people who have the kind of stroke I had die with in 1-2 days. And about 90% of those die within two months. So I would not recommend it for anyone. So as some have said, I am a bit of an anomaly. 

So what else?

I was told that I had had a stroke, that I rember, by a nurse.   I didn't believe him . I am told that I looked like I knew what was happening,  nope.  I think I rember two occasions when people stopped by to see  me, but everything else was a crazy dream. 

Then one day I woke up. I kind of wish I was still "sleeping".  It was a misreble "dream", but so is my reality. 

I think I had a glimps of what life could be like for me and it is not good. I am so blessed it is not even funny.  I may hate my life right now, but it is just right now. I have a wife and kids that come to see me almost every day, thank you so much. My mom and her husband just got done seeing me and it was so nice to see them,  I can't say enough. I have the greatest brothers and sisters and their husbands and wives,thank you so much. My friends, both near and far thank you for your loving support. If you are reading this and don't think you fit into one of the afore mentioned category's,  you better think again.