Monday 19 October 2015.....lalala

I really think I am going to pause the writing of my own. I will still post. The thing that concerns me is that some think that I am a "piece of work". 

One thing that I have studied for about 27 years is personality types. I learned about "The Color Code/People Code" when I was 15. For several years I thought it was ideal. It's ok but I would say there are more easy methods to understand. 

I am more inclined to the "Insight Learning". It is similar to "The People Code/Color Code". It is more similar to the "Myers-Briggs personality type indicator". I am quite fond of both. In many ways my family thought that my obsession with "The Insight Learning" Method made me more "weird" than normal. At times I've had different levels of enthusiasm about my study of personality. Overall I think that it has much more influence on any of us than we want to give credit. We are a product of how we were raised and the external world has more influence on us than we are willing to admit. We are also hard wired in a way that influences us in countless ways. We are all unique. Just because mom and dad were a certain way doesn't mean the kids will be. 

Our personality is fixed. It is also a part of everything that makes us us. 

One of my professors from college, that introduced the concept of personality to me said after talking about it with us, "I've just given you enough information to make you dangerous."  There really is so much we don't know it's amazing we know anything at times. There is a lot that we don't understand. 

I would dare say I have shifted into a lower gear but I am still trying to go full speed. I am out of esteem. When that happens I can get overly analytical. I can analyze something to pieces. 

I can be ruthless right now. I very much do not want anyone to have to experience that. You my be smart. I dare say I am smarter. I am talking in very general term. You my be amazing at math science or whatever. My specialty is theater. Technical theater at that. If you wanted my to act and it was a tragedy you would laugh yourself to tears or cringe with horror. I was a technician and an analyzer of plays. I could help build sets or costumes from designing to building I was awesome. Not so much anymore. I do not have the dexterity to do any kind of work with my hands. I am limited to what I can type on my iPad or phone, computers are to hard. I was never the best by any stretch of the imagination. I was good. I really quite liked charter analysis. And it was very fun. It led me to a road were I became a Social Worker. I liked to analyze characters in plays. Somehow I got confused and thought I wanted to help analyze real people. Not the same thing. Similar in aspects but not the same. I like theater and writing quite a lot. I think the concepts have more application than we might think. Theater as an art form is almost to much. It is very powerful and wonderful. In this day and age it is almost self indulgent. I love it. 

I have had the dubious privilege of having many different occupations. There is more that is interrelated than we care to admit. I maybe think to much. I will survive whether you like it or not. I'm pretty sure you will to. 

There is a lot I want to write. It is probably a good thing that I don't remember what I want to express because I would most likely offend everyone I know in some form or another. If you haven't had your fill of abuse just let me know and I can laugh at you for a while. If you really want to be screamed at and told how rotten you are I ask that you find someone else to fulfill your desire

Don't leave. Don't expect much from me.